nostalgia
April 6, 2008
REAL FRIENDS? they don’t tell lies. they’re not backstabbers & most especially they don’t leave you behind!they’re not pretentious & they dont ruin your life!!
i know how to treasure my friends & i know how to value them!but sometimes the friend i value the most is the one who will left me hanging in the open, who will hurt me soo bad. it’s just soo hard to accept that i’m here trying to move on & trying to forget the memories we had & trying to forget that she even became my friend, (one of the closest & even the dearest friend), & she’s there eventually happy that we ended up as "nothing" & the fact the she has moved on.funny it may seems that i act as if nothing’s wrong.pretended that i’m super ok when the truth is i’m missing her soo bad!wishing that i could turn back the hands of tym.
my life is not at its best right now because of this.funny it may sound but my troubles is all about the frienship & not because of love.
some of my friends(or even the wannabes) would think it is redundant. a never ending story. but for me i considered this greatest turmoil. one of the biggest problems i ever had, so far!!i keep on thinking about this. days. months. & eventually year. thinking when will this sad feeling end.
i just wish i will wake up one moorning & things between us will be just like before…
drunken words are sober thoughts…
April 3, 2008I’m not a drunkard , i tell you. i drink when i’m with my friends, i drink to have fun, i drink to call it a night [ or even a day], i drink to forget a problem[?], i drink to get drunk!lolz!
drinking indeed spells the word F-U-N!!i tend to forget all the problems & stuffs…chuva ah!& when drinking, there are no pretentions nor lies! it is actually the real M-E!
others may say that i am not aware of what i’m doing & saying. what they didn’t know is that when you’re drunk you tend to become sober.
that’s the reason why sometimes i want to drink & drink & drink as much as i can to have all the guts that i needed.to be able to stand up for what i truly feel. to be able to tell the people around of who i am. to be able to show my true feelings. to tell the has-beens that they have hurt me & they are really hurting me & it kills me up to now, not knowing what to do next.to tell him that i am still here [waiting].♥♥
x0×0,
♥jhanneeh™♥
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